Graphophobia-

how can someone actually love a monster.

2010-05-16T23:42:00.001+08:00

All i ever do is hurt you.

reminder.

2010-01-26T00:50:00.002+08:00

Tuesday - bake cookies.
Wednesday - Japanese @ Holiday Inn
Thursday - Her paycheck.
Friday - Look out point.

haircut, clip nails, dye hair, download glee, print recipe, driving test.

crawl back to love.

2010-01-15T02:36:00.002+08:00

Jerynn MQ Lim. I love you. :)

youknowitsyou.

2010-01-11T10:44:00.004+08:00

i'm sure you all already know how lazy i am to blog.
so i'll just leave you with this.

i hate your face and everything i had with you was a remorse.

I'm just saying. ;)

give it all up.

2009-12-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

'Sex complicate things'-Sandra Caron.

you is princess. i are frog.

2009-12-16T21:36:00.001+08:00

i miss a certian animal. that goes quack.

different.

2009-12-07T02:16:00.002+08:00

skin, voice, mind, vain, free,

love.

officially 48 hours.

2009-11-30T13:41:00.001+08:00

my hands are shaking, my bones are sore, i feel like vomitting & I'm as tired as hell.

sheknowsit,iknowit.

2009-11-24T00:46:00.003+08:00

You are holding my heart hostage.
& i dont know whats going to happen next.

cold sweat.

2009-11-01T13:19:00.004+08:00

I had a dream last night.

I was on top of a very tall building.
except the building was made out of styrofoam
And i was instructed to jump off that shakey building with a ballon that was suppose to 'soften' my landing. The balloon didnt even had helium in it.

So yeh, i jumped, but the baloon slipped from my hand.
I woke up before i could die.

I'm terrified of heights now. :(

Take calculated risks.

2009-10-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

Dear god, i need help studying.

I can't seem to catch you alone.

2009-10-19T13:17:00.002+08:00

'to hell with being smooth, i don't want to be cool, so here's the sorry truth, i'm falling for you.

I've been shisha-ing alot this weeek. :\
help me.

jew like my new header thing? (A)

Retro!

2009-10-15T13:26:00.003+08:00

18.03.09 - 05.10.09.

2009-10-05T19:23:00.001+08:00

the end.

2009-10-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

its so hard to admit this, but we're falling apart.

:(

2009-10-03T16:58:00.001+08:00

she made me button up. :(

20-09-2009.

2009-09-20T04:26:00.001+08:00

thank you. :)

you`

2009-09-14T02:41:00.008+08:00

i never realize how much you've done for me, until i wrote this.

you're the only one who knows everything about me, my good side, my bad & my worst.
when i told you about my deepest secret, you reminded me that we were made imperfect.you taught me so much in life when i thought there was nothing left learn. you would laugh at my stupid jokes when no one else would,you are the only one who thinks i smell good when everyone else begs me to take a bath. you are the one who calls every night in this relationship,you are the one who calls every morning so that i won't be late for school. you were there when the whole world literally shuts me out.you were so patient when i give you my stupid and immature fits that i could never forgive myself for. you make me laugh when i needed the smile, you were the air when i needed to breathe.

i'm the one who needs you Renee, not the other way `round.
but now that you're gone, what am i gonna hold on to?

09.09.09

2009-09-09T02:46:00.001+08:00

20.09 2009. -17

& it's only getting worst.

skype.

2009-09-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

hello, goodbye.

pink slips.

2009-08-12T16:56:00.000+08:00

trials are almost over.

paper bags & plastic hearts.

2009-08-07T22:56:00.002+08:00

nothing is going as i wish it would.

school is so depressing,and my family just wont get along.

and the one thing thats keeping me sane isnt' there as often as it was.
I miss my girlfriend,she's the only thing that puts a smile on my face.

I feel this as if something heavy is sitting on my heart, not allowing it to feel the happiness i once had.

I want that back, so desperately.

I sat next to the wall

2009-08-06T10:58:00.000+08:00

i just want this week, to be over.

emo elmo.

2009-08-05T00:52:00.001+08:00

my girlfriend won't invite me to read her blog. :(

pen stealers-

2009-07-26T15:17:00.004+08:00

I had tuition at perfection last week, supposingly the first class tuition in the whole of Malaysia. So, unfortunately, I left my pencil case in class. silly me.

Today, i went back to the center if they found any missing pencil case. And they did keep it, supprisingly.

Receptionist : Grey wan ah?

So then, i took it from her hands instantly, jolly joy.

but when I held it in my hands right, I knew that something was wrong, UBER OMEGA wrong.I opened up my pencilcase and all my pens were stolen. Including Penda, Penzil, Rex, Gsquare. my babies. :(

& all that I was left with was 2 broken mechanics, a broken g2 and a ruler.
damn emo la now.

but then again, all those pens that were stolen........

were previously stolen by me!
TEEEHEEEEEEE.

this may never start.

2009-07-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

cipet, the started dota without me.

2009-07-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

'Everything is funny as long as it is happening to somebody else.'-Will Rogers

2009-07-11T21:35:00.001+08:00

celebrating my mom's birthday. (:

so don't worry.

2009-07-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

i don't need you to do it. all i need is you.
like i said bi, I'm happy when i do it right and that you're happy. (:

AND YOU ARE HOTTT! <3

(:

2009-06-30T21:23:00.003+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Maaf, 92xxxxxxxxxxxxx tidak dipilih untuk menyertai PLKN siri 7/2010.
Terima Kasih.

Sama-sama *BIG GRIN*

you make my day shine brighter.

2009-06-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

Watched 2 movies today, dont know if it was good or not, i was focusing on someother things. :)

whisper words of love.

2009-06-24T18:31:00.002+08:00

imisssomeone.
imhopingtogooutwiththatsuperspecialsomeonethisweekend.

better, stronger.

2009-06-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

school makes me :( , but seeing you makes me :).

I :) you. <3

third of many more to come. <3

2009-06-18T19:54:00.003+08:00

Happy third duckie.

& i dont care that i cheated, i love you and thats all that matters right? :P <3

2009-06-14T18:48:00.001+08:00

i hope youre doing fine, i miss you.

overdue.

2009-06-14T01:55:00.003+08:00

forgotten to post this.. haha. good times (:

i hate faris. :D

2009-06-11T15:43:00.004+08:00

I know HTML.

[how to meet ladies]

2009-06-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

viva las vegas :D

xtxr.

2009-06-08T03:30:00.002+08:00

Ida Scott Taylor : 'Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.'

on a completely different ; I'm home.

2009-06-05T18:36:00.002+08:00

Renee here, and Gavin is away in Penang.
so, hello hello (:

sudden realization.

2009-06-04T01:45:00.003+08:00

you told me that next time i dated someone else, I wouldn't remember you enough to tell her about it.

& all i did was laugh and denied.

but what i really meant to tell you is,

What we have is strong, and it's been awhile since i've felt this way about someone, & right now, you are the one for me.you are the apple of my eye & the star in my sky.(haha)
but most importantly honey,you are the best I've ever had.

sky high.

2009-06-03T11:20:00.003+08:00

the world was spinning,
my hands were cold, my feet were numb.
tongues were dry and throats were sore.

I could only focus on something for 5 seconds,and on the very next second, i lost complete and literate focus. I was a scared at first, thinking something was SERIOUSLY wrong with me. i started counting to ten,to see if my senses are still intact, later then i realize, i've reach 99, unawared.

We were at the lonely road, where no cars or vehicles seemed to passed by.So it was pretty safe. I couldnt stop talking to myself,I keep trying to explain how it was affecting me to my friends while they were pushing me back, prevent me from hurting someone especially myself.

2 hours had passed and i couldnt stop talking, i talked talked and talked. I literally thought out loud'. Everything i had in mind came straight out of my mouth. & i couldnt control it.I felt as if my concious was at least 6 years old.

Everything cooled down pretty quickly after that, splashed my face with ice cold water and i was back to normal.

There goes another tuesday :D

then she turns around.

2009-06-01T01:32:00.002+08:00

just another day, that started out like any other.

i'm counting on you to bring me love.

2009-05-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

mid years are over. :D
& youre all mineeeee.<3

2009-05-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. anyone? :)

2009-05-24T20:48:00.003+08:00

These are the details in the fabric, the things that make you panic.
-Morrison.

`swoon

2009-05-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

I :) you ReneeL.
-youre the best damn thing I have. <3

2009-05-23T18:52:00.001+08:00

desperate housewives, roxxor.

old wounds hurts most.

2009-05-21T23:25:00.004+08:00

greetings, bitches.

Today is 'blog about my day' day. Courtesy of someone someone :D

So I went to school at 10 today, Didn't have enough sleep, but I only had Moral paper only at 1.
So we were studying in the library until Jeric came, talked an hour long about bullshit, then they went to smoke in Zul's car. pathetic. :)

Later during my Moral exam, i was sleeping in class, and that bitchteacher wrote my name in the observation sheet. complaining about my behaviour. But then again, I couldn't be bothered.

The paper was 2 hours long. It was already the end of school, went up to get Renee. Ate at the primary, where we got yelled at some bitchfuck security guard.As if the primary is like sacred. go die la. -.-

Duckie was feeling so down today, she might have put on a brave face and plastered a smile on her cheeks,but all i could see was that unexplainable sadness in her eyes. & I don't know which hurts most, knowing she's feeling deprived or the fact that i couldn't do anything to make her feel any better.

So to all you haters out there,The sooner realize that noone can ever be as perfect as you want them to be, the better.
& if you have a problem with someone, you hold it to yourself.

Grow up, get the fuck off of her back and goodnight.

Gavin`signing out.

acceptance or denial?

2009-05-20T13:17:00.002+08:00

Hello, I am right now, at home. stonning my skinny ass on the sofa. Father opposite me, yelling at someone through the phone. The sky is blue, weather is a bitch.

& right now, im sitting here all by myself trying to find something to do.
whatever it is that I will be doing, one thing will always be constant, and thats you. :)

So anyway, I didnt pay the school fees on time, and if i did, i wouldve have got that rebate thing. But again, i've failed to do so. therefore, Im supposed to write an appeal letter for it. so yeah. It's going pretty well, Ian helped. :) .

Ever notice how meaningless my posts are?Seriously.this is prolly the longest post i'll ever write in a looong time.(only because im stoning right now)

So, Bm was, retarded. I literally coughed out everything i know and just wiped it on the school's A4 paper. :)
History, was a foreign language.
English on the other hand, was abc123.

& I'm not even done with the hard ones yet. :(

Maybe someday you'll ask for me.

2009-05-18T17:54:00.002+08:00

Hello & welcome all,

Today.
BM1
BM2
SEJARAH 1

3 down, a whole road of hell more to go.

peace.

d-

2009-05-14T17:28:00.001+08:00

Had standard test today. 800m.

& i was #1.
:)

smoke somor la bitch.

2009-05-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

reneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)

2009-05-12T17:22:00.004+08:00

despite the horrible singing,

off pitched instruments

untuned amps

and the super unorganized stage placing.

5G got in for band finals,

HAHA! don't you just love it when that happens?

stand closer, dear.

2009-05-10T22:34:00.004+08:00

I can't explain it, she makes me weak.

How to Install LOVE.

2009-05-09T18:47:00.003+08:00

;its too cute not to share.

Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install
Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you
located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now.
Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge
and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt
from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent
memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will
eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High
Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and
Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.
Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke
Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and
Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that
normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base
program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get
the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error
- Program not run on external components.” What should I do?

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set
up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In
non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before
you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the
following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your
Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The
system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all
directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely
gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files.
Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying
themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but
eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed
and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in
turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

2009-05-07T18:44:00.002+08:00

prelimps :D

i miss.

2009-05-05T19:35:00.002+08:00

A fine frenzy ;
Ashes & Wine
Whisper

where would we be now?

2009-05-02T19:44:00.003+08:00

I smiled,

You laughed,
I look away.
I sighed,
you ask me why,
& I said : Its' okay, I'm just feeling down.

Life'sGood. TOO Good :D

2009-04-29T20:37:00.001+08:00

Hello 42` LCD. :D

i give up, i love you.

2009-04-28T00:32:00.002+08:00

i think, its you.

2009-04-27T00:47:00.005+08:00

'whats cookin`?'

Hahaha.Poor bitch, mom prolly banned her from the kitchen. :D

texas`

2009-04-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

we is cool :D

i'll make this work, for us.

2009-04-22T00:49:00.003+08:00

The very cool Elisa Ashlyn. :)

meet my boyfriend.

she makes it easy.

2009-04-21T00:45:00.001+08:00

something i tried with the all new Photoshop CS4. :)

they call you her.

2009-04-19T10:36:00.002+08:00

Open day srikdu `09.

~~holy crap, i was so tired, i fell asleep on my mom's bed!~~

2009-04-14T21:03:00.001+08:00

gavinnizer

because the pain is overwhelming.

2009-04-12T19:28:00.004+08:00

No one should ever know how much this hurts.

today, i've finally realize that what we have now, is what we're all ever gonna get.

i'm loving angels instead.

2009-04-12T10:52:00.001+08:00

David Archuleta sounded 4000 times better in our school. :)

jmpr

2009-04-06T18:18:00.004+08:00

#cut ties from all the lies.

cant wait for band prelims (:

2009-04-04T13:22:00.003+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMGOMGOMG

i learnt backhandspring today :D

i hope you know.

2009-03-31T22:09:00.002+08:00

Don't be too offended to someone whose overly rude, because they may be that way for the nicest of reasons.

gavin lim jia wei is a lazy asshole :]

2009-03-29T15:05:00.005+08:00

are we humans , or are we dancers? :)

vote for david archuleta to come to sri kdu.
please?

x
renee

t- 24.

2009-03-28T01:42:00.001+08:00

Someone on my msn wrote this as his pm :

I wanna kill the sexiest person alive, but suicide is a crime..

I fell off the chair right away. :D

It's our turn, now.

2009-03-25T20:57:00.005+08:00

On this Saturday from 8.30 to 9.30. if i see any of you mother fuckers online.(via mobile connection) I will fucking rape each and every one of your asses on Monday.

Have a good day (:

2009-03-23T18:13:00.002+08:00

i pick all my skirts, to be a little bit, sexy. :D

she's so fucking hot.

Top 5 moments in Blue Cheer `09.

2009-03-18T13:45:00.011+08:00

1) Did 3 Front-hand-springs,simultaneously!
2) GOT UP ON MY FIRST ELEVATOR ! :D (thanks Joel//Faris)
3) Saving my flyer from an 8 feet basket toss that could've went fatally wrong. :)
4) Tasted gold on my debut for house cheer.
5) You.

yeahp thats a pretty awesome list if you ask me. (:

Haircut #391

2009-03-15T15:53:00.004+08:00

fuck -.-

what more can i ask for?

2009-03-12T16:23:00.001+08:00

your history is mine.

Face of the year.

2009-03-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha.

Blue`

2009-03-07T10:35:00.003+08:00

nuff said. :)

Nervaphobia.

2009-03-02T18:33:00.002+08:00

cheer in 4 days.

6 hours of cheer today and we've finally finished our routine :D

Dystychiphobia.

2009-02-22T20:07:00.002+08:00

Oh god, sports day is in 12 days. and we don't even have our routine right. talk about last minuteness..

What if i forget my steps. oh god it makes me sick to my stomach.

Im gonna go puke.

Triskaidekaphobia- Fear of the number 13.

2009-02-13T20:37:00.001+08:00

Friday 13.

Had band practise today. sucked like shit. :D

2009-02-11T14:34:00.001+08:00

nicole emo me. :(

sometimes i wish i could save you.

2009-02-08T11:46:00.004+08:00

So a few of us went out today.to celebrate our dearest Bryan's 17th bitrhday.
Ate at Friday's where they did their birthday thing. lol.

It's safe to say he enjoyed every minute of it. hah.
Pink Panther 2 after that.

Jacques Clouseau: Let me bring you up to speed... We know nothing. You are now up to speed.
(priceless)

Been watching alot of 'Knight Rider' and 'Prison Break' lately.
there isn't a better way to pass time than this.
SCYLLA!

Later that night, went out with SOMEONE and her cousin.Had a drink or two at Dataran and then watched some live perfromances at Lepaq. That guy brought Coldplay to a whole new level.
And i had Grape Mint! :D. woooo. forgotten how fun shisha was =\.
(thanks la 'someone'.) :]

Addicted to Simple Plan's Save You.

2009-02-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

fucking outdates.

just my luck.

2009-01-30T04:25:00.003+08:00

Fucking lost all my money on blackjack.

-there goes my pair of nike's.

sigh.

a piece of work.

2009-01-15T21:35:00.006+08:00

Today was exhausting as hell. Had football in the moring, cheer in the afternoon and tuition at the evening. After tuition, Dad came with his car, and asks me to drive to KL for dinner.I gave him the 'oh okay' face. but in my heart i was jumping like a tarded monkey.

Along our way,There was a roadblock ! OHMYMOTHERSISTERFATHERGOD.
i was scared shitless.

As i try to act as casual as possible.
THE MOTHERFUCKER PULLED ME OVER.
My dad started to grin. -.-
I wind down the window.(at this moment i was so weak, i could feel like i was getting a little pale).

Police. Me.
(transalated)
Yes?
Do you know why did i stop you?
Not really, no. why?whats the problem?
The problem is..

your petrol lid isnt closed.

motherfucker scared the shit outta me over a lid. -.-

Okay, maybe the event wasnt that dramatic lah, but... special effect mah!

2009-01-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

cheer audition today.

sucked.

Delicious ; F5!

2009-01-03T11:59:00.004+08:00

Bitch didnt wanna share tables.

diva. :)

Go die. :) :D

Behind this face, is one big mother fucking asshole. ;D

Pamela, the ass kicker. ;D

ma nigga.

Pamela, Yean,Jeric Voon Hung, Denise, Michelle.

The Duar. :D

the rest is with Pam ; who is too lazy to post up the pictures anyway.

And helllooo 2009.

2009-01-01T02:13:00.000+08:00

This years resolutions ;

1)
2)
3)
4)
5)

Goodbye 2008.

2008-12-31T02:29:00.003+08:00

In the year 2008' , I've learnt:

1)That i give up too easily.
2)That I have a huge ego.
3)How friendship is made and broken.
4)How to play the guitar/drums.
5)What friendship really means.

In the year 2008' , I will always remember :

1)My first --
2)cheer 2008.
3)teh babes ;D
4)Moths worth of pain caused by a stupid crush.
5)the days when im with you.

god, help me.

2008-12-20T02:20:00.001+08:00

HOLY SHIT, I CRASHED MY DAD'S CAR!

(haha, suckers, that issnt my car, but my car IS damaged, just 10inch scratch.) :(

2008-12-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

there were times i walk from you, like some passing afternoon.

gentinnggggggg.

2008-12-14T02:30:00.003+08:00

Lazy to sort/blog/caption/talk.

6I' Class of 2004.

2008-12-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

Justin, Lai, Jonathan,Khai Shen.

Melanie, Yee Fong, Bryan, teh coolest, Sucelia, Ken, CM, Minn, Jing Hui.

google.

2008-12-07T22:06:00.004+08:00

I'm at trengannu now. with my family.
My dad let me drove the highway.. whee. Dad wouldnt let me exceed 120 though.
(and no, my whole family is safe,no one died.) :)

I bought Sucelia a bear, and she named it Gaviin. double I. How awesome is that.

Went Pyramid, watched a couple of movies, had lunch and thats about it.
Bolt, is a good movie.Too bad we didnt watch it in 3d though.
And WildChild was okay, its about this blonde,spoilt american girl who goes to England to study.

and thats about it.

I like who I am when I'm with you.

Robin v. Persie

2008-12-02T14:54:00.002+08:00

Arsenal 2 - Chelsea 1.

Next stop, Liverpool :D

2008-11-29T12:15:00.002+08:00

6I gathering 2008.